We all have our ups and downs when it comes to thoughts, emotions, energy level. Of course, I love when I am full of energy, ready to move mountains, inspiring and moving others. Yesterday, I enjoyed each step on my way. Today, I have to face the reverse – and I’m so damn good at finding ways to avoid being there, facing the feelings generated by various fears (there are so many!). The simple fact that it is my birthday next week makes me think & feel that I haven’t achieved anything all these years (so many). I know how stupid that sounds (have you ever been there before?) and I also know that it is just a thought, a judgment about my life and the dissatisfaction coming from that. This is absolutely non-zen – I can figure that out after riding horses for several days in the middle of nowhere! Today, I decided that I’m strong enough to face being stupid (=to choose to feel unhappy for no matter what reason), so I’m not going to run again and I’m not going out with some friends in search for consolation. Nothing can be scary sometimes, even though there is so much space around, so much freedom and so many doors to open. So, here I am, dreaming about horses again…